Friday, April 1, 2011

I Should Be Excited... But I'm Not

I got the job offer.

I should jumping for joy.  Instead I have a pit in my stomach.  I am really worried that the vet and I are never going to click.  I hate the idea of dreading my job.

But am I feeling all nauseous just because I assume it will be bad?  Because it means I wont get to go to Washington at the end of April like I was looking forward to? Because it means no more sleeping in until noon, staying up until 2am, and hanging out with my friends whenever I want?  Because it means suddenly I have to be an adult? 

Or is my intuition trying to tell me something? You know, "Beware, rocks ahead!" ?

Or is this just my crippling-self-doubt rearing it's ugly head telling me I'm not good enough, not competent enough, not smart enough. Telling me this job is too difficult, to hard, so beyond my capacity that it is laughable that I even applied in the first place?

This offer came via an email.  So I'm guessing I get maybe 12 hours to respond?  Because she can't be sure of when I would read said email...

I should take it.  In my head, it is the logical decision.  This is technically a receptionist position that will allow me to slowly pick up hours as a technician.  It has been about 9 months since I last did all the tech-type-activities and admittedly am a little rusty so this gives me a chance to ease back into it.  And hey, it is money.  It is a job during a time when jobs are difficult to find.

So why am I not jumping up and down with excitement?


  1. Congratulations on getting the offer :)) Maybe a little extra money will mean that you can treat yourself to a few things you like or if you don't take it, at least you've had a confidence boost and could find something that you'd like more. Thinking of you for your hard decision xoxo

  2. Congrats on the offer! Change is hard - even good changes. Hopefully the money coming in will help you out in the the long-term, if you hate it, you can always look again!

  3. Congrats! Your apprehension is normal because taking the job means a lot that you have grown used to is going to change--and any change is difficult. I was in a similar situation a few years ago and ended up taking the job. It was what I needed at the time (money, socialization-we had just moved to a new part of the state, and distraction). If you accept the job and it doesn't work out you can always move on to something else; but if you don't accept it you can never go back. Just my opinion. Good Luck!

  4. I totally think you should take it - give it a couple of months (don't they say it takes 90 days to truly feel comfortable in a new job?). If you're not liking it after 90 days, you can always quit, but you might as well give it a shot.

    Congrats on getting a job offer in this economy - I'm a little jealous. :)

  5. Thanks for the encouragement. I am grateful for this offer, for this opportunity when jobs are a rare commodity.

    *hugs to all ya'll!*